Everything You Always Wanted to Know About Aimee

Sat, 21 Nov 2009 22:37:01 GMT

Winter is coming again. And I'm tired. As usual.
I can't believe college is almost over. My job for the past 13 years has been learn, learn, learn! And now, I don't know what to do with my life. Grad school? School? Move home for a year? I don't know!
And it's even worse because I don't want to think about it, but I know I have to! I hate it.

Mon, 26 Oct 2009 14:47:02 GMT

Come on immune system!
You're really letting me down, here!

Sorry.

Wed, 25 Feb 2009 21:10:07 GMT

I was really upset last night, hence the last post. Sorry!!! Don't freak peeps.
Also, I found this awesome new website/blog thing that I love. You should check it out if you're interested.
http://www.aimeenoel.tumblr.com/
You can put links from anything you find on the internet that you like, or quotes from books or movies, pictures of things going on in your life, update by phone, im, or journal. It's ADDICTING!!!

Fix up, look sharp!

Thu, 19 Feb 2009 20:43:31 GMT

INSTRUCTIONS:
1. Put your iPod or other music player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got this from.
(Do it if you want to)
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1.) IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?: I'll Find A Way

2.) WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?: Psychobabble (HAHA!)

3.) WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?: Baby, it's Fact.

4.) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?: Ride

5.) WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?: Life is Short

6.) WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?: Life Goes On

7.) WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?: Cleveland

8.) WHAT IS 2+2?: This Conversation is OVER.

9.) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?: Hold On

10.) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?: Think of You

11.) WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?: Constellations

12.) WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?: I Never

13.) WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?: All You Need is Love

14.) WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?: Show me the Meaning of Being Lonely (UGHH)

15.) WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?: Happiness is a Warm Gun

16.) WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?: Love Me Too Much

17.) WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?: Conspiracy

18.) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?: Not Hot to Trot

19.) WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?: Wish you were Here

20.) HOW WILL YOU DIE?: Daylight Robbery (OMG!)

21.) WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?: No Thang on Me

22.) WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?: How I Could Just Kill a Man (HAHA)

23.) WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?: Forget Her

24.) WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?: If You want Me To (YESSS, this is really working out!)

25.) WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?: From Where I'm Standing

26.) DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?: Hope for the Hopeless (yeahh. that's about right.)

27.) IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?: Missing you.

28.) WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?: Understanding

29.) WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?: Fix Up, Look Sharp

Wed, 11 Feb 2009 03:23:14 GMT

Things I want:
-A pork pie hat. Like this one...
http://www.hottopic.com/hottopic/store/product.jsp?FOLDER%3C%3Efolder_id=2534374302028406&PRODUCT%3C%3Eprd_id=845524442192816&bmUID=1234319242582
-A denim skirt that is right above knee length.

-A Sundress like this:

-A ton of other things I'm sure...but that's all I can think of.

So far...

Fri, 06 Feb 2009 14:38:09 GMT

So far, the new year has been a real eye-opener. I guess I figured out a lot about my life that I was so unhappy with, and never realized before that I was unhappy because it was the only way I had ever felt. It's good to finally have realized that and to take the necessary steps to fix it, I just wish I hadn't waited 7 years to get to this point. Although, I guess when you are 14 years old, you don't look at things the same way you do when you're an "adult". Anyway, I'm seeing a difference and I think I'm finally going to start living life to the fullest and actually start FEELING. I'm excited.
In other news, I taught myself 3 songs on the guitar and that makes me super excited! Also, I did 15 pushups the other day! That's a 300% improvement from the 5 I did just 3 weeks ago! Whoo, this whole getting into shape thing is sooooo good for the mind AND body. I think if everyone started exercising we'd all be a lot happier.
I'm going to buy the book Skinny Bitch. It's a diet book, but I'm more reading it for the benefits of veganism. I'm a vegetarian and am considering becoming vegan after I move out of the house, I can't ask my parents, the times I am home, to cook special meals for me and to buy me special foods, I just feel like that would be way too much since they already sacrifice a lot for me being vegetarian. I appreciate them a lot.
By the way, classes started, and I love Contemporary Literature. Ahhh! It's so good.
WEEKENDDDDDDDDDDDD!

Alex Barker

Sun, 04 Jan 2009 05:18:15 GMT

Alex Barker lives 15 minutes away from ___________ high school by foot, but chooses to drive. He does not like the concept of planning ahead for "circumstances beyond his control" that could occur while walking to and from school, like the weather or the driving habits of their "alcoholic" neighbor. Alex does, however, enjoy wrapping the words he awards quotation marks with using his fingers while explaining to his parents why he chooses to drive to school instead of walk. His parents reply with something about "laziness" and "his generation" as they concede to his decision, not that they should. Alex could use the exercise. At 17 years old, Alex is a fairly hefty boy. Although he is quite a good-looking boy with dark hair and light eyes he struggles to be anything mre than a funny side kick to the more popular athletic boys who receive all the attention from the more desirable girls in school. Alex does know one girl, though, whom he has known all his life and never thought of in "that way" until recently after an incident at the neighborhood playground occured after hours. She wrote him a letter:

"Dear Alex,
You've been my closest friend for a long time, and you're probably the one person in this world that I've actually opened up to about things that I wouldn't normally tell other people. So, I want to try to give an explanation, albeit some may see it as an "excuse", as to why I'm always blowing people off and never returning phone calls and turning into more and more of a hermit crab everyday.
I guess it started my freshman year of high school actually, halfway through. I just started to feel a "darkness", for lack of a better word, that I couldn't get rid of. It's like it comes and goes. I'll feel really angry and lock myself in my room and not eat and do nothing but lie in the dark until the feeling passes. Sometimes it's hours or days or weeks. But it always does pass. And then I continue on like nothing happened. I guess it's kind of hard to hide things like that though when you live in a small community and people recognize that you skip meals constantly. Soo, I pretty much forced myself to feel better. And that worked for a while up until last year. It's weird the things that go through a person's head when they're that sad, and for no reason. I'd have a bad day at practice and I'd think, I just want to die. That seems like a really stupid reason to want to die, I could have just quit the team, that would've been a much easier solution, right? But... dying seemed like the only solution to anything that I felt. Once it got to the point that I thought about death all too frequently I figured I should probably do something about it. So I went to the school counselor figuring that i would just say, I feel sad sometimes and then it would all get better. But you never realize how hard it is to talk to a stranger until you're actually there. So I left.
It wasn't until this year that I realized it was getting bad. Like, all summer, I wouldn't see anyone. I just didn't want to. I would feel too sad anytime I thought about seeing you and I don't even know why. If I hung out just one time it was like my heart would get really heavy in my chest and I felt sad. Somebody close to me suggested I get counseling. Big surprise there! Our school counselor suggested that I probably have some degree of depression. Which, whatever. I haven't told my parents, i haven't told anyone, I just thought I could tell you because I remember when we went to the graveyard downtown and talked about things in our lives. Sometimes I'm scared because I don't know what will happen to me and what I'll become and i let it eat me up too much. But what else can we think about?
Anyway, that's a whole lot of blabbering to say that I'm sorry for the way I've treated you sometimes. It's not much of a friend to never return calls or to stand you up. I'm sorry.
You don't have to write back, by the way.. I kind of just thought i'd put this in to the void and you could read it and maybe understand silently.
Sincerely,
Maggie."

He realized after reading it that he loved her, he wanted to save her. He just didn't know how.

Happy 21 Birthday to me!!!

Tue, 09 Dec 2008 19:19:19 GMT

MAN! When you're a little kid you never think this day will come...but it's here! I'm 21! I can legally drink now! All the sneaking and creeping around is OVER! I am officially LEGAL!
Not that I'm going to take advantage of it like crazy, but... it's kind of cool! Anyway... happy birthday to me! Exams are almost over, it's almost time to go home and see my family and RELAX for a little bit. I'm really happy right now. I hope it lasts! <3Aimee

Sigh.

Mon, 06 Oct 2008 14:43:56 GMT

Well, the original plan since this summer has been that in January I am going to Australia.

All that is changed now.
I'm not going.

I'm never going to get out of the states.

I hate money.

Beware Readers

Fri, 12 Sep 2008 02:05:25 GMT

So, I was going about my normal inernet business the other day; checking my email, looking at facebook, blah blah. Then, it occurred to me. It was Monday and I hadn't yet checked the new PostSecrets that were put up on Sunday! I was shocked at myself, for normally I am an avid PostSecret checker, and never had I gone a Sunday morning without reading, with a fervent desire, the secrets that others have decided to share with the rest of the world. I quickly directed my web-browser to the PostSecret website and began reading hungrily the embarassing, debilitating, and sometimes hilarious secrets... until I came to one that I was a bit confused by.

Questions were filling my head: Who is this Tucker Max character? How is it that he is living such a fulfilling life? What makes him so special? Why would a girl want to be like him?

Naturally, my curiousity got the best of me, and I had to put my Google Browser to work. I entered "Tucker Max" into my google toolbar and countless searches came up with the words Tucker Max in them, but the most successful one was, of course,www.TuckerMax.com . Curiousity got the better of me... I clicked the link...

Damn you, Google! Damn you for directing my web browser in the direction of this smut and villainy! My eyes have seen and read things now that I never in my wildest dreams would have imagined could happen in this world, and it made me laugh. In fact, I didn't just laugh, I chuckled, snorted, giggled, guffawed, and ROFLMAO (Yes, I went there). This villain, this uncultured and self proclaimed "asshole", while being completely disgusting, is hilarious in his recounting of drunken nights with loose women.
However, while it is funny to read these stories and think "Good GOD, why would anyone DO that to themselves!?" it is also quite sickening. When you read a story like, "Tucker tries buttsex, hilarity does NOT ensue", you become completely desensitzed. After a story like that I feel like a good, old-fashioned poop joke will not make me laugh quite as hard.

Don't do it folks.
Unless, like me... you enjoy a good, wholesome blowjob story every once in a while.
Stick to PostSecret.

Wed, 20 Aug 2008 00:20:04 GMT

I need a haircut.
But I can't decide what to get. My hair is too unruly and crazy for short cuts.
Urghhh.

edit: 9-5-2008: I got it cut.

Wed, 30 Jul 2008 15:16:46 GMT

I see that I was wrong about a lot of things.
I've spent most of my summer alone because of this.
I know now, after neglecting tons of people, that I do have people who care about me...sometimes I'm just stubborn, and it takes me a long time to get things through my head.
I'm not saying what I've done or what I haven't... I'm just sorry.
I'm sorry for neglecting everyone and simply assuming that no one cared.
I was really selfish.
And even though it's late now... I'm sorry.

Wed, 11 Jun 2008 19:22:05 GMT

I am not a Christian, living at home, working at Kohl's, not running like I should be, and sitting on my butt at home everyday alone.
My perfect sister is working at Church Camp in Keezletown, running every morning, and worshipping the lord.
It's a lot of fun being compared to her.
So much fun that I hate running everday because it's turning into something I hate. Why does this happen every summer? Why can't they just leave me alone?
Sigh.

Sat, 26 Apr 2008 23:25:17 GMT

I am still miserably sick.
I have never been sick for this long.
My body couldn't have picked a better time. (note the sarcasm).
Exam week is coming and I need to be better Sooon.
Ahhh!

Wed, 23 Apr 2008 22:26:04 GMT

I am miserably sick.
Ughhh.

20

Mon, 10 Mar 2008 17:29:06 GMT

20 can be a confusing age.
I'm still in college, so not quite a grown-up yet.
However, I'm confused because I am not sure what kind of freedom I really have.
I still get money in my birthday cards.
I still get money from my parents when I need something.
My parents still make my health appointments for me.

I'm 20...but I'm still extremely dependent on my parents.
When do I let go?
Maybe this year is the year.

Yay!

Thu, 06 Mar 2008 18:35:21 GMT

There are a few artists I have been obsessed with lately.

A FINE FRENZY

I'm going to see her in concert, too! March 23! I can't wait, this will be something I remember FOREVER!!!!!! She's my absolute FAVORITE!

PARAMORE

I have a girl-crush on Hayley. She's hot.

RILO KILEY

I especially love their new album UNDER THE BLACKLIGHT. It rocks!

ONCE soundtrack

I loved this movie. I loved this music. What better combination?

THE LAST TOWN CHORUS

Steel Guitars=love.

NEKO CASE

She's so soulful, you want to hug her.

Is it ironic that they all have redheads in their bands?
Maybe.
But their music is incredible and I'm addicted.
This weekend is going to be good.

Thu, 17 Jan 2008 19:34:20 GMT

Ohhhh.
So THAT'S what I want!

Mon, 14 Jan 2008 19:21:30 GMT

I thought I knew what I wanted.
But I constantly second-guess myself.
I don't know what I want.
I wish I knew that a few months ago.

YAY!

Fri, 26 Oct 2007 04:41:15 GMT

I decided I needed to stop taking crap from people.
So I did.
And already my life is panning out so much better.
I've already gotten rid of 2 major things in my life that were bringing me down, and I am NOT sad to see them go.
Sigh.
I hope this continues, because I feel really great.

Tue, 09 Oct 2007 16:20:01 GMT

I really hate boys.
They're dumb.
Every boy in my life right now is dumb.
And I don't want to deal with them anymore.

Wed, 05 Sep 2007 00:18:48 GMT

Today was the first day of classes! I learned that I am not ready for them to start yet. I wish I could go back in time about a month. I would run a lot more, and read more books.
Speaking of running, it's actually going a lot better this year! I trained more over the summer, so I'm not completely sucking, but I'm still not anywhere near where I want to be on the team. I just hope that I consistently improve and get to be where I want to be SOON! We get to to go to New York for a meet, how exciting is that?! I've never been there before, and I'll get to visit Jack and Val! I can't wait. I'll be really disappointed if this trip falls through.
Sometimes I wish that I wasn't going to school at Bridgewater. I want to escape into downtown Harrisonburg and paint pottery. I want to meet interesting people, but I feel like I'm kind of stuck. I know there are interesting people on campus, but I miss my old friends. And I wish that I was majoring in something that I actually enjoyed. I used to really like the idea of becoming a physical therapist, but now i'm second guessing myself. I'm not sure if I want to do that for the rest of my life. I feel like I want to create and be free to choose when and where I work. Having a desk job just isn't what I want to see myself doing 10 years from now, even if it does pay well. Should I follow my heart? I think I'm just confused.
And speaking of hearts... mine is lonely. But, it's best that it stays that way for a long while.
I love A Fine Frenzy.

Fri, 24 Aug 2007 05:10:24 GMT

So, we broke up. And it was semi-mutual in that I didn't fight it. It was the last thing I wanted...but I want him to be happy.
It's just rough because we shared so much this summer, and got so close to each other, and now it's over.
It might be easier on both of us emotionally, and we won't have this huge responsibility looming over us saying that we need to be huge priorities in each other's lives. The thing is... it wouldn't be looming to me. I'd be happy to fit him in, and spend time with him. I'm a very loyal and caring person, and I LOVE to love.
I just feel really strongly that I would rather be in a difficult situation with him than be in an easier situation with someone else.
But what choice do I have now?

Wah wah wah. That's me.

Sun, 10 Jun 2007 16:38:51 GMT

A small tribute.

Thu, 24 May 2007 05:05:50 GMT

I still haven't forgiven you for making me cry, even though it was such a long time ago.

I wonder why you don't talk to me anymore.

You and I were never good friends, so I don't care that we don't hang out.

I wouldn't be the person I am today without you.

I hate you.

You and I were meant to be.

You are amazing and I'm sad I didn't see it sooner.

I love you so much more than everyone else, and I've known all of them longer.

You deserve the BEST and I love you with all of my heart.

You are everything I want to be.

Sometimes I'm not sure how you feel about me but know that I care about you a lot.

I miss you.

I can talk to you about EVERYTHING and I love you to death.

I think you are incredibly sweet.

I have a huge crush on you, but you don't know it.

You bug me to death, but I can't get enough of you.

You are so beautiful, and you don't even see it!!!

We don't agree on anything, but that's what keeps things interesting.

You don't know it, but I wish we were better friends.

Thanks for caring about me, but you're still a jerk.

You're just plain old weird, but you mean well.

I'm a jerk, but I felt like writing it.